I went for a marvelous run less than an hour ago, came home stretched, showered and now am enjoying half a candy bar, because I really know how to live. I enjoy island life thus far, everything is only ever about 4 miles away, most people are friendly, and greet each other regularly. The island is somehow even peaceful in its’ frenzied chaos to have every sign painted, window repaired, every item in stock, and all the furniture refinished so that each shop may open fully, smoothly this very weekend.
Even so I find myself drawn to facebook, in the hopes of staying in the loop with my friends. It is odd to think how most of what is posted is almost as though it is in a foreign land. I think of all the events going on the island, the grand openings, the ferries starting to go to Mackinaw City, even the construction. I expect to see these things on facebook, these updates on events. Then I realize I have exactly one friend on facebook that is on this island and she is my co worker. The only one that knows about island events is me.
I see my friends moving, graduating, having parties, or getting ready for the summer, and I feel rather removed. I did not quite expect what graduating and getting a job would mean, in relation to relating to my friends. I will never have another summer off, or spring break, no more exams, or projects with due dates and grades. I will always have due dates but less research is needed; I don’t poor over papers, books, trying to order my thoughts and scribing them all down before they disappear. If anything I get out of my chair and I go do something, talk to people, and make actions happen.
One day we will all once again be on the same page of our lives for awhile, but never in the same town, unlikely for any great amount of time. I will miss those days, however I will not hold onto them so boldly as to keep from finding new connections. I am happy I have had all I have, I hope that as I continue, I will be fortunate enough to have more, yes, I am really that greedy. I never said I was perfect.
Embrace the new in your life. It is very difficult to start the next chapter when everyone is on the one before. You are right though, everyone will catch up eventually. It is hard to be done but you will adjust. We all do. And yes, it is kind of sad and makes you feel like you are in a foreign land. That has been the story of my life for about 2 years now. Good luck though!
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