Trying To Get It Right

It is difficult not to dwell on mistakes; therefore I’ve been in search for various types of distractions. Unfortunately that doesn’t really allow me to deal with the original problem. Upon reflection I’ve realized the wrong turns and unsteady steps that have brought me back to the job hunting field. Now I need to take my lessons, learn from them and face forward once again.

I must:

Slow down

Consider every angle

Follow up

Speak up

These lessons are intertwined and overlap. I’ve learned them all before, I now realize I haven’t learned how to fuse these steps into one useful habit. Practice makes perfect, here goes nothing.

Coaching and Teaching...New To Me

I started my training today for the marathon. I never thought it would be that difficult to run for a half hour straight, but I’m obviously not in the shape I think I am. I made it about twenty minutes before my body gave out on me. I just kept telling myself this is only the beginning, and I’ve got to keep going to reach the place I really want to be, to finish that half marathon.

I’ve also been job hunting. I found one I really like and I think I could really do well in. The only weak part on my experience for this position is that I’m not very familiar with their software, Microsoft Visio. So I did what anyone from my generation would do and “googled” it. I am now the proud owner of the 60 day trial version and I found some training videos on youtube. All this feels very similar to going to school, I like being a student again. Only this time I’m teaching myself.

Am I the Goalie?

I’m home. I’ve unpacked, I’ve even made dinner. I am once again on the hunt for that sought after life creating career. I am happy, because this change gives me the chance to get where I really want to be faster. I want to be near, around, overseeing, and behind events. (Please excuse the excess, I felt the need to practice my prepositions.)

I have often read that potential employers want to know what their potential employees have accomplished, NOT what they have done. Professionally, I would say I have accomplished an average amount of goals, but I would not like to settle for average, I want to excel. Perhaps because personally, I have done many things, and not accomplished as many goals I am less driven than I should be.

In the past personally, I’ve set two goals that I can recall striving for, one is to become healthier in my diet, regular work outs and even doctor visits. This particular goal will always be an ongoing challenge I think, and I relish the thought.  The other goal I set was to find a job before I finished a tube of toothpaste, which is actually the origin of this blog. I completed that goal, but now I cannot say if I did so successfully.

Therefore, I am setting two new goals. 
    ＊                        In the next year I want to be able to run a half marathon. 
    ＊     I want to work towards not only the life I want, but a job I can make a difference in.  (This time there will be no time limit, perhaps I rushed things last time. I will complete the task correctly no matter how long it takes.)

Here's to, Chears to

I haven’t been writing, I won't say I haven’t had time that’s a cop out. I have however been dealing with my choices and my feelings. These last few weeks at work I haven’t felt as though I was properly contributing to the company, so I discussed this with my other co-workers. They kindly encouraged me to keep on trucking and I would figure it out, or get more comfortable in my role. I would love to announce that is exactly what happened.

The truth is, my paper routes, school and other odd jobs did not prepare me for the combination of pressure this particular role provided. Not to say that in time or with more experience I could have excelled as the second in command at this particular position. My trial period was fast approaching its end. So when I had a meeting with my higher management today we agreed, I might be happier elsewhere. If nothing else in a different role, manager I can handle, the rest of it not so much. I won’t even discuss what “it” is; trust me you don’t want to know.

I will continue to follow my dreams although with a bit more caution. I jumped at an opportunity I was naïve enough to think I could handle without much practice. So here’s to practice, to learning, to focus, to dreaming, to living, to doing your best and having no regrets. To moving on and being okay with it.

New Haunts

Happy June!! So much is about to happen not only today but in the next three weeks it’s ridiculous. On my most recent day off, about two days ago, I decided to test my level of courage and took the midnight haunted tour on Mackinac Island. It proved it’s amazing-ness by handing out glow sticks right from the start. The first creepy story was actually about tied to the place I work. A true story even, a guest checkout of the Murray Hotel, at 9am (I don’t remember the year) she was walking to British Landing, when someone came from behind and hit her hard enough in the head to knock out her dental pallet, she was then left for dead. After one of the largest missing person’s hunt in Michigan, a boy scout found her dental pallet. Twenty feet away, they found her body…the killer was never found and could even still be on the island yet. 

Needless to say if you like being spooked, Haunts of Mackinac, is worth checking out.  

Surprise Attack...I Mean Visit

My parents are to visit this weekend, that shall be an adventure all its own. I have little to no food in my apartment that doesn’t come in a box, a can or if feeling adventurous a jar. I work in a hotel, I’m the Assistant General Manager…they want to stay in my one bedroom apartment. Which means I get the couch…and or the inflatable mattress they are bringing. I only have one set of sheets and one blanket. I only have one set of sheets because I had to buy king sheets for my massive bed. So, to clear out my apartment of all the stuff I don’t use I took all my queen sheets to the mainland and put them in my car.

The conversation went like this, my dad texted me on Sunday,  “Do you if work fri, sat, sun, mon or do you have one of those days off this coming weekend” Me: “Friday”. Monday morning dad texts, “If you have Friday off this maybe we come if its ok” I called my mom to help me decipher the truth of my dad’s poor texting, she said oh we are planning on visiting. So I asked her if it was just for Friday, and she said no the whole weekend.  

My side of the phone was silent for awhile. Don’t get me wrong I’m happy to see them, but I really like to have more than four days notice about company. I really need to clean this place. Which I was going to do on my day off, along with laundry, I guess I’ll start some now.

Winding Thoughts...No Steady Path

I can’t believe how fast the pace on this island moves, for it being so slow. I don’t know how balanced I’ve made my life, lately I’ve lucky if I eat three times a day. I have managed to explore a few new trails, even handled to getting lost a time or two in the wildness of the woods. I made a mistake by trying the fudge, I eat it all the time, I made a conscious effort to reduce my sugar intake. I’m not sure I’ve succeeded yet. I’ve even painted a room in my apartment. To those not here you can only imagine the improvement on it’s lovely structure. The difference encourages me to continue with my home improvements. I like seeing a change, one I’ve orchestrated.

I think that may be my goal in life, is to orchestrate change, change of point of view, angles even how places appear. A little like an interior designer but only for briefer settings. I will not arrange your home, just the events that happen in your life, a celebration, a meeting, a class, ect. Every occurrence and new interesting challenge. I’m all hyped up just thinking about it.

In an effort to eat more regularly, I make what some people would consider dinner at 9am, and take it in to work for lunch, odd I know. Honestly, being me that just makes it normal. I’m such a picky eater, I dislike lunch food. Or what people consider lunch food.  Here I’m still just trying to take care of myself and chase my goals. I still don’t know what I would do if my dreams ever became a reality.